Sunday, October 31, 2004

An extra seat

So this blog entry was supposed to be about my fish, along with a picture of the dashing fella. That entry's gonna have to wait until next time because well, just because I want to write about something else. I normally don't write anything too personal on these things, but this I feel must be put on this blog.

So, anyway, we all have friends. And with your friends, sometimes you don't always treat them as the fantastic, wonderful people that they are. Usually, you don't mean to treat them badly, but it happens. But that's okay, because usually those moments are brief, rare moments of insensitivity, arrogance, and just plain stupidity. However, when those moments are not so rare and last for long periods of time, then you know your friendship is in trouble. Because no one deserves to have a friend who does not treat them like the wonderful person that they are. Usually by this point, you have started to avoid contact with your friend because avoiding the person means avoiding the arrogance, avoiding the snide remarks, and avoiding feeling like crap. You can try talking to your friend, but after a year of trying and being told that you feeling bad is your problem and not his, what's the point? When your friend finally realizes that you are not happy with the relationship, does he stop and think that maybe he contributed to the situation? Does he wonder what went wrong? Does he even bother to listen to the people who try to help him? Or, in his naturally self-centered way, does he start his usual pity party and decide that you are at fault, that you woke up one morning and decided not to care about him? The sad part is when you do care about this friend who does not care about you. The sad part is when you see him treating his other friends badly, when you see him pick a new emotional punching bag. And you know. You know he's not only just lost you as a friend, but he's about to lose someone else, too.

Monday, October 25, 2004

Yawn...

Alarm Clock 2

I really should update more. I tend to go in cycles of updating. Right now I'm on a down cycle. I think it's because I associate turning on the computer with working. And after coming home from work, I don't want to associate anything with work. Oh, and you can't access blogs from DOE computers. I learned this valuable lesson a few weeks ago as I tried to read my friend's blog. Anyhow, I'm just rambling. I'm not feeling all that great and I'm tired. On my next blog, pictures of my new fish.

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Poker Night

Poker

I just came back from Poker Night with some people from work. It was a lot of fun and I'm so glad that I went. It's always hard to be the new person in a group that's well established and I think it was important to go tonight to make friends. And playing poker is so much fun. I lost my $10, but it was so fun that that's okay. We played Texas Hold 'Em, just like they do on the World Poker Tour. I don't think I could play for big money though. It's too stressful.

Thursday, October 07, 2004

A New Blog

So after a couple of years of xanga and several months of actually posting on xanga, I'm trying this new blog. Some of my friends are posting on blogger so I decided to check it out. It seems like there's more features, though it'd be cool if you could subscribe to sites like on xanga. Or maybe you can and I just haven't discovered that feature yet. I wonder how often I'll post?